I’m ever so sorry, I am still forced to writing this on my phone. So the format will still be messed up like yesterday’s entry. But the important thing is I made time to write. Lately it seems so easy to forget about you, and I apologize from the bottom of my heart for that. I’m starting to feel like the old me again. Today I ate about 600 calories, and worked off like 400 of them so far. I’m getting back on track to being skinny. Probably because I’ve completely redone my phone. I only allow myself to look at thinspo pictures, a reminder that I refuse to be fat.
I guess my motabolism is slowing down a lot because the last time I ate was about 3 hours ago,and I can still feel it in my stomach, I’m so full right now. Amd I hate this feeling. It makes me feel so fucking fat.
I don’t really have much to say today. It’s just been one of those days where nothing really happens and you dont really feel anything special. No anger, no happiness. I’m just here.
I guess I’ll write to you tomorrow. Once again, I promise :)
Until next time, Coco Marie <3 (stupid phone won’t let me put in the emoji heart, just imagine me sending all my love to you.)
I forgot to tell you! I WROTE a song. It’s about my experience being stuck here. It’s called Maybe Tomorrow. I wrote it after watching that one girl who wrote His Daughter. God, its so inspirational.Anyways, maybe I’ll record it on my phone and post it for you to see. (keep in mind it has extremely poor audio). Also, I may not be the best singer, but listen to the lyrics instead of my voce and you’ll be fine.